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February 4, 2010, 12:52 am
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preface: i read my friend christa’s blog when i can; i’m not sure if she even knows. nonetheless, her openness and her consistency inspire me and gently remind me that i want to be blogging more. what follows is the first of several exercises ripped directly off of her.

I have (I guess) the luxury of having the decades of my life coincide with the decades on a calendar. The end of 2009 marks the last full year of my twenties. These reviews have a special poignancy for me because they mark a round third of my life. It unsettles me a little that the next time I do this it will have only been a quarter of my life but that’s a post for early august.

Best Day – my wedding, the births of my sons, but christ, so much else that’s happened has been wonderful. my brother was also born (weird, right?), and my sister’s album came out, my eldest child learned to talk, walk, my youngest smiled . . .

Worst Day – december 1, 2007, the death of my brother-in-law. also november 14, 2000, the day i found out that my boyfriend john was dead.

Best Decision – marrying my husband
Worst Decision – leaving school

Saving Grace – my therapist
Downfall – trying to control too much, trying to take care of too much, not standing up for myself (all things that are markedly improved compared to when I WAS 20 YEARS OLD)

Best Realization – that I am a fox. also that i am not having any more kids.
Worst Realization – that I am not having any more kids.

Biggest Hope – to be able to stop living paycheck to almost paycheck
Biggest Fear – something happening to my children

Best Year – 2006
Worst Year – 2001

People I Can’t Live Without – my sister, my boys, my husband, keyonnee
People I Can Live Without – my mother’s exhusband, people i used to do drugs with

Thing I Can’t Live Without – my phone. i know.
Thing I Can Live Without – the alarm on my house. i hate you, vector security.

Best Fashion Find – pencil skirts. and the DVFs my husband bought for me. he also bought me a pair of copper prada pumps that deserve an honorable mention
Worst Fashion Find – nursing bras.

Fashion Obsession – shoes and sunglasses.
Fashion Hate – dry clean only (purely for logistical reasons)

Best Food/Drink Find – seriously, it’s chinese pizza.
Worst Food/Drink Find – hrm. i don’t try much new.

Food/Drink Love – trader joe’s alfredo with fresh peas
Food/Drink Hate – Mexican – outranking other food i don’t like because of its frequency in my life.

TV Love – Lost, the Wire
TV Hate – Fox news

Internet Love – Twitter, dooce
Internet Hate – the unread count in my blog reader

Best Development – the opening of the backyard
Worst Development – mom’s short-lived yet disastrous marriage

Mood Improver – my boys
Mood Worsener – propaganda

Best Investment – my BJs membership
Worst Investment – any technology that i bought before the sizes and prices came down

Best Travel – oh so many cool places – moscow, reyjkavik, florianopolis, but my heart is on the white sand beaches of negril
Worst Travel – driving to florida in 17 hours for my uncle jack’s funeral, then leaving 30 hours later with alcohol poisoning for another 20 hour drive home.

Personal Empowerment – successfully negotiating what i needed at work after i had my second son
Personal Struggle – eating like a 10 year old

Best Accomplishment – despite the redundancy, my children
Worst Failure – my biggest regret is leaving my video camera in my car the fateful night it got broken into and we lost our wedding video. forever.

How I Started This Decade – bartending, in love with an idiot, making dumb decisions, living with my dad
How I’m Ending This Decade – with my own amazing wonderful beautiful family, in a house that needs a shitton of work but is really perfect, a job i’m more satisfied with than ever, and a negative balance in my checking account.




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